hi. i’m dani.
i think a lot about what is actually real, and how we decide that. i'm not very smart or well educated, but i have curiosity about lived experience. what counts as truth when everything we know comes through perception, interpretation, and memory;
for most of my life i trusted things that could be measured, tested, or proven. that still matters to me. but i don’t think it’s the whole picture anymore. there are parts of reality that only show up when you experience them directly, and they don’t translate cleanly into language or evidence or images or sound. they're perceptions we don't have words for. like the haiku format, how it smears ideas across words to give you an impression through collation. you map the meaning across multiple axis and generate the resultant emotion in your mind;
i’m interested in the between planes, how to bring ideas and feelings and thoughts across by manipulating the material plane into forms that can shape emotions on people's personal astral environments.
i spend a lot of time thinking about consciousness. what it is, where it comes from, and what the “voices” in and outside my head actually are. whether it’s me, or part of me, or something that feels like me because i’m used to it. i don’t have a final answer, but i don’t think the usual explanations are complete. or even close to. or even asking the right questions anymore.
i also think about how humans build meaning. religion, culture, identity as systems that emerge over time and get mistaken for something fundamental in reality or concrete when really they're made up..(gender roles for example, why is pink girl and blue boy? no reason at all, they're arbitrary and swap what means what every so often) i try to look at those systems without immediately accepting or rejecting them.
i don’t see myself as fitting cleanly into categories like gender or identity labels. i understand why they exist, but they feel like approximations rather than something essential. i exist as a person first, and everything else comes after that. i respect people who have taken on gender as an identity on purpose. someone who has looked at the cultural idea of man or woman or even non-binary even tho that's a much vaster swathe and often less understood by the mainstream. but i respect these gender-havers cuz they point to something and say "i wanna be that" and then they become it. whether it be a male child become a man or a trans person swapping into the opposite of their assigned role and sticking with it and rocking it. that's cool. i don't like though when people are pressured or forced into identifying thing gender non-concensually. gender should be opt in only, like being a vegan. anyways lol.
i like making things. mostly small things cuz i get bored quick and change topic i'm interested in. games, simple tech demos from ideas i had, short writings. its nice to get things out in front of me so they can stop bouncing around my head.. they let me test how something feels instead of just thinking about it. oftentimes how things work in the material realm is much different to how we expected.
this website is a place to put those things i make. it's haphazard and under construction conststantly and incomplete. it’s not finished, and it probably never will be. hopefully if i die i have enough money in my bank to keep paying the neocities fee and someone finds this site and is like woah a cool artist. cuz artists are only cool after they're dead. when they're alive and still making stuff there could be infinite of their stuff .but when an artist dies their stuff is capped. there will never be another original elmyr or klimnt. so the extant paintings are completely non-fungible and limited in quantity. like bit coin :P